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Remus for fille's Lily
Remus nursed his beer. He'd stood by Sirius and Peter during the obligatory toasting of James and Lily. He'd blushed profusely as Sirius hinted at just how lucky James was in winning Lily. Sirius's comments had been - as was Sirius's way - dangerously close to crossing all lines of decency.

Lily had, however, simply stood by and smiled, her arm wrapped dutifully around James's waist, smile indicating nothing but joy.

It was difficult not to dwell upon the fact that at one time, Remus had thought, that he would be the source of her joy. It was difficult to smile and toast and be merry with the rest of his mates. But he did. Not for James, but for her.
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fillequill From: fillequill Date: June 17th, 2007 03:13 am (UTC) (Link)
Lily stood quietly at James' side, listening in amusement at Sirius' drunken congrats. She smiled when he finished with a bow and stumbled to their sofa, blowing a tuft of hair from his eyes. She tensed slightly as James laughed into her hair, whisky thick on his breath. Until death do us part. This is how things were going to be. Her eyes found Remus across the room, leaning beside the fireplace and avoiding her gaze. This is how things were going to be.
gryfforin From: gryfforin Date: June 17th, 2007 03:23 am (UTC) (Link)
Remus listened to the cheers and applause, his mind torn between Apparating somewhere far far away- Tibet perhaps- and doing the right thing, what was expected.

He downed the rest of his beer, the bitterness tasting especially appropriate given his surroundings, and fixed his face with a carefully practiced smile. When Remus looked up to make his way across the room, he found himself immobile, transfixed by her gaze.

Volumes were communicated, unspoken, between he and Lily in mere moments and his smile faltered. He could not force himself to cross the room to shake James's hand and kiss Lily kindly on the cheek. Not tonight.

Remus had no question that when the wedding came about, he would successfully stow away these... thoughts... wreaking havoc on his composure. But, it would not happen tonight.

Nodding at Lily regretfully, Remus quirked the corner of his mouth at her, and turned to leave the room before the tear wetting his right eye slipped to his cheek.
fillequill From: fillequill Date: June 17th, 2007 03:41 am (UTC) (Link)
It wasn't right, the way he smiled. He looked more tired than she had ever seen him and she thought she probably did as well. The room erupted with laughter at a joke she hadn't heard and she had to arch her head over the crowd to see Remus pulling the front door shut behind him. Lily twisted out of James' arms, not thinking a moment before grabbing her coat.

"Whisky. We're out of whisky. Just going to pop down t'the corner and pick up another."

She pulled her scarf around her neck, stepping out into dim light of street lamp on the corner. He had only made it a few yards before she called out to him.
gryfforin From: gryfforin Date: June 17th, 2007 03:48 am (UTC) (Link)

He could hear her call, but his steps did not falter. Remus wanted nothing more than to turn to her, to look upon her face, to hear words... hear words reserved for James Remus reminded himself, withdrawing his wand.

He could just Disapparate. Accept reality and drown his sorrows in a few pints, and perhaps in a whore's bed. There was nothing keeping him here. There was nothing left for him here.

Remus wanted to leave, but when he heard Lily call his name once more, her steps speeding to catch up with him, he couldn't. Turning, he allowed himself a slow smile as he stood waiting for her to reach him.

"Won't you be missed?" he asked softly, a slight arch of his brow as he stood still, hands hanging limply at his side
fillequill From: fillequill Date: June 17th, 2007 04:00 am (UTC) (Link)
"They're all a bit pissed," Lily exhaled, a translucent cloud sliding from between her parted lips into the chilled air between them. "I had hoped you might stay a bit longer. You don't come 'round much anymore." She glanced down, reaching out and letting her fingers brush across his knuckles. "I miss seeing your face." She thought of James and empty bottles of whisky. Returning to look up at Remus' eyes, she smiled.
gryfforin From: gryfforin Date: June 17th, 2007 04:06 am (UTC) (Link)
"I miss..."

Though caution was warring with him to say his goodbyes, Remus firmly closed the door to that train of thought. He was not pissed, but not sober either, and there was a sense of hopelessness in the air that left Remus feeling as if he'd nothing to lose.

Remus caught her fingers in his own as she brushed against his knuckles, and bent his head toward Lily's.

"It would not be appropriate for me to come 'round, Lily." The words were spoken with a melancholy smile across his features as he gently squeezed her fingers within his grasp. "I miss far more than your face."

Remus hesitated a moment, before leaning in closer, his lips finding her hair line and lingering as he breathed in the scent of her. "I wish you the best, Lily. I truly wish you the best."
fillequill From: fillequill Date: June 17th, 2007 04:17 am (UTC) (Link)
"Remus," Lily whispered, letting her head fall into his shoulder. "You shouldn't say things like that. You musn't." There was a tightness in her chest and her eyes grew damp. Her hands slid inside his jacket and found his back. "I just want it to be like it was, Remus." The thought of returning to the flat, filled with loud, drunken friends made her shiver more than the cold night.
gryfforin From: gryfforin Date: June 17th, 2007 04:25 am (UTC) (Link)
Something caught in Remus's throat. Lily's head taking purchase on his shoulder, her words so plaintive as she pulled him close.

Lily Evans, head girl, a head of fire, and a flaming tongue to match, this was a side that she rarely shared, that he'd rarely seen. And yet, here she was leaning against him for desperation.

Something stirred deep within him, feelings of guilt warring with loyalty warring with desire followed.

"I only speak the truth," Remus said plainly, reciprocating her embrace as his chin rested atop her head; his eyes clenching shut. "Things cannot be the same."

The words cut even as he spoke them. Holding Lily tightly in his arms as she shook at his response, held his at bay. Remus kissed the top of her head, before looking down and lifting her chin, his eyes gazing intently into hers. "I speak only the truth," he whispered, the words a harsh echo as he pressed his lips softly to the corner of her mouth.
fillequill From: fillequill Date: June 17th, 2007 04:39 am (UTC) (Link)
He's right. Turn around and go back to your flat. Put James to bed.

Her breath caught in her lungs as his lips grazed her own. Her eyes fell shut and her hands clung at his sides. She never closed her eyes with James anymore, she thought.

Lily pulled back, another breath escaping onto Remus' neck.

"We'll go away." She spoke urgently. "France or Isreal. We'll just go." Her lips dragged across his throat between words. "We'll go tonight."
gryfforin From: gryfforin Date: June 17th, 2007 04:48 am (UTC) (Link)
"No," Remus answered simply against her lips.

He could feel Lily's sigh against them, a bittersweet, chaste, kiss between old lovers, igniting into more.

Remus's hand raised, his palm glided against the curve of her face. Remus cradled her head as his lips parted, tongue tentatively tasting her lips against his own. Remus pulled her against him, pulling her hips snug against his before the reality of their situation broke through the feel of her body against his.

Remus breathed deeply as he bent, his forehead resting against her own, shallow breaths the only sound in the quiet night.

"I won't run away," Remus spoke softly. "There are many things that you could ask of me Lily, but that is not one of them."
fillequill From: fillequill Date: June 17th, 2007 05:02 am (UTC) (Link)
She held his hand against her cheek, pressing her face into the palm of his hand. In the distance behind them, the flat bursted with another spell of laughter and cheers. Lily's eyes closed and her brow furrowed. Her fingers tightened around Remus' hand, pulling him further down the quiet avenue and out of the organge glow of the street light. She turned quickly, stopping short in the darkness and pushing him roughly against the damp brick of the building. Lily's hands tangled in the collar of his coat, her mouth crashing against his. There was a desperation in her she couldn't remember feeling before.

"I can't go back there." She breathed.
gryfforin From: gryfforin Date: June 17th, 2007 05:21 am (UTC) (Link)
But you must The words were there, swirling through Remus's mind, but so was Lily's mouth, pressed urgently against his... her tongue gliding against his lips as her hands gripped at his collar urgently.

But you must The words drowned in Lily's kisses as Remus's resolve broke, his hand sliding from the side of her face, to tangle in her thick tresses.

"You can't go back there," he hazedly agreed, as Lily's lips parted from his, swolen and moist, her tongue darting across the lower as green eyes, wide and seeking gazed upon him.

There was no more reason. There was only passion and want, and Lily: her body within his embrace, her lips, against his own, her curves, body arching into his touch as his hand traced gentle swells down to her hips. "Not now..."

Remus noted the plea in his voice but didn't care. It had been too long since he'd felt her like this, too long since he'd tasted her. It would be too long...

"Not ever..." it was a fervent wish, whispered against the flesh of her throat as his lips nuzzled against the delicate column, tongue laving along the path of a vein.
fillequill From: fillequill Date: June 17th, 2007 05:41 am (UTC) (Link)
"Missed you," Lily murmured, her eyes flickering open. This used to be everyday. Each trip to the library and every night when the others had drifted off to sleep. This was how it use to be, Lily thought, as Remus tongue played across her neck.

She released a hand from his collar, drawing lines down his chest and pulling his shirt free from his trousers. Her palm drifted up over the familiar skin, fingernails grazing scars. Her fingers came to rest across the buckle of his belt. Lily's eyes searched further down the alley before taking his hand again and ducking into a shallow alcove in the wall. Pressing her own back against the cold brick, she pulled his body against her own. "Like before..." she mumbled, pulling at the leather of his belt.
gryfforin From: gryfforin Date: June 17th, 2007 08:10 pm (UTC) (Link)
"Like..." he breathed, grasping her hands from his waist and pinning them over her head in his left, "Like now..."

There was a hushed urgency in his voice as his right hand dropped to finish opening the buckle of his belt. His lips sought hers roughly, her sighs of appreciation feeding his passion.

Remus didn't think of what was, opportunities missed. His only thought as he opened the fly of his trousers, shoving them down his hips, was that Lily would remember this night for all of her days.

fillequill From: fillequill Date: July 2nd, 2007 03:14 am (UTC) (Link)
Lily gasped at the sudden pain in her wrists, pulling half-heartedly against Remus' grip before his lips found hers. A moan escaped her as she attempted to speak. Lily thought it must be what going mad should feel like; to want something so badly, yet be unable to reach out and touch it.

Taking his bottom lip between her own, she dragged her teeth along it roughly.

katerdylex From: katerdylex Date: June 20th, 2007 09:15 pm (UTC) (Link)
Aww, Mars finally got her R/L. :) Beautiful, honey!
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